>>48631 (OP)
Trying to be a Christian but I'm really bad at it.
>>48644
>I only pray when things have gotten down the shitter and I can’t think of anything else to do to solve my problems.
That's what brought me back to the fold. I did something stupid and completely ruined my life, fell on my face and started praying hard. Nothing's really gotten better and I'm still suffering, but at least I can trust in God, that he'll sort things out in his own timing. That's all I have, and I just have to believe it's enough.