>>92530 (OP)
I want to assume that we're all frens here and you are asking in good faith, rather than trying to wind us all up.
There is an old meme, older than the Internet, about people getting "bad acid" and becoming "acid casualties," like the guy someone heard about from his cousin, who has a friend who works at the state mental hospital, who thinks he's a glass of orange juice because he used "bad acid" once in 1971.
But there is a little truth here. People who habitually use drugs often become the "burnouts" you see on the street. It doesn't happen to everyone, of course, but it happens to enough to create a yuge public health problem. I am of the opinion that nothing good ever comes of it.
>the cool kids won't let me sit at their table
Fluff 'em. You know what else never results in anything good? Making life changing decisions based on whether strangers will approve of you.
>prior mental health issues
It's certainly a really, really, really, really bad combination. A long time ago I knew a very sweet young woman who was on meds that were mostly controlling whatever kind of craziness afflicted her. Periodically she'd smoke weed at a party and end up on the roof of the building, screaming that she was the Virgin Mary and she was going to jump off and fly up to Heaven. It might have been bad weed, but it was only her that was affected this way. After about the fourth time I witnessed it I cut off all contact with her and her friends. Sooner or later, I figured, the paramedics weren't going to get there in time, and I didn't want to see or hear about what would happen next. Maybe I'm a bad person, I dunno.
But I have to say, fren, coming to an obscure Cambodian cave painting AOL chatroom like this one fur advice about such weighty topics seems like maybe not the best plan. I'm just Saiyan. goku.jpg.exe